Some love is just a lie of the heart…

Some love is just a lie of the heart
The cold remains of what began with a passionate start,
And they may not want it to end,
But it will it’s just a question of when,

Singing the soul’s lyrics: Elvis Presley

I have never been good at expressing myself in words. Every time I try to put my ideas into words that will form a sentence and make me understandable for the rest, my mind seems to be unable to perform that task and not being able to find the proper words from the large net of my mind I end up appearing a stupid and silly person in the eyes of people

Don’t raise children in “unhealthy families”

A small world in this big world — a world which two people create and where two people act as guards and guardians until their chickabiddies are old enough to open the gates of that world and start their own. That beautiful world is the family.

Time and again I have said that I am a most lucky person who has been raised in a wonderful family, which perhaps has not been able to provide every piece of the material aspect, meaning for example, a two-wheel bicycle (although I had a three-wheel one :)) or roller skates, mainly accounted by the hard times Armenia was going through after it gained independence, but they gave me the first and foremost thing I needed as a child — love. And as the wise know, where there is love, there are lots of other things as well, including care, respect, lots of games, smiles, etc.

Would I ever want to have another mom or another dad? Would I ever want to be raised in a different family

Vision for future or absence of it

I remember around a year ago we had a meeting with one of richest Armenians in the world. A short talk with him was enough to understand that this person has not only focused on making money but also on retaining and improving his human aspect.

Without any wish to cite his ideas that reflect pure wisdom, there is one thing that has stuck on my mind. He said that in our life we should focus on the long-term goals which might as well include short-term ones. What he recommended was having a clear idea of where we want to see us 15 years down the road

Purifying the soul

The coming two months will be quite challenging for me, a challenge I am undertaking quite consciously and with a strong wish driven from within. It will be a short period of self-exploration, of getting rid of ghosts around me, of facing my mistakes and correcting them, of confronting my fears and overcoming them, of forgiving myself for certain things and doing my best to forgive those who have ever hurt me, of forgetting the worst of nightmares and ignoring the artificially imposed

Quit relationships in which…

If you are reading this, then you must have some good cause for it and if the cause is that the content of this post refers to you too, then I am very sorry for your bitter experience and let me give you a hug for a better future once you give up on a certain person a.k.a. your love.

Photo by Ani Babayan

Being in a stormy relationship and still choosing to remain by his side, I did not spare me, including my life. One day one of his friends asked me “when are you going to marry?” I said “we are not going,” she said “why?” I said because he is not mature enough to know what a family is and what it is to be a man, a husband and a father.

That white hair…

Photo by Ani Babayan

People like me do not spend their time in front of mirrors waiting for the mirror to announce the final verdict “you are beautiful now.” I strongly believe that every person is beautiful and the time spent in front of a mirror detecting our flaws and acne is just a time wasted. It would be so much the better if people spent that time detecting and correcting their inner flaws, flaws which might make them the ugliest even if they have the most attractive countenance…

However, yesterday just before taking a shower I looked at myself in the mirror, and when I was about to turn I saw it — I saw that completely white hair, the “caña” as the Spanish would call, and it

Lack of respect and appreciation in families

While family is one of the top priorities for Armenians, the general truth is that marrying your husband you marry his entire family. This tendency has dwindled to a certain extent primarily compared to marriages in Soviet Armenia, but it still exists. Perhaps it will fully disappear in the years to come, but as long as there are the descendants of the Soviet Armenia generations, this will be preserved.

Photo by Ani Babayan

What does marrying the entire family mean?

Longing for the End-Point

Photo by Ani Babayan

The elevator which carries my mom, one of my sisters and me stops on the first floor and we walk out except for my mom who is too scared to go out because of the man with his dog waiting for his turn to go up. Had I been in a different mood I would probably go back, take my mom’s hand and lead her out. Instead I told her

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When you’re once being beaten by love, you always think you’ll never be able to recover from that. You think so until the moment someone appears and makes you believe that your heart hasn’t died yet, that it can still spread its wings and fly high above everything. This is a great feeling. And that’s how you can describe it, a feeling, but how it actually feels