Brief Account of My Project in Spain

I am a person who is in constant search for the good, for the human and for the things worth living for. I am 23 years old and the last few years of my life had passed within the walls of my university and work place and one day I simply realized that I have cut me from people and have driven myself far from one important point in my life, which is to help people. It was then that I started searching for something that would help me re-build my life, which would offer new challenges that would be used as a material to “renovate” the basis of my life and make it stronger, and eventually, help me with the goal I had set for me, but of which I had become oblivious.

My project has to do with blind people.

Advertising: A Bunch of Shit

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Advertising is perhaps as old as the oldest profession on our planet, yet if with the years the oldest profession has not changed much, advertising has acquired new forms and new ways of expression. If previously the product to be advertised was being seen or shown directly to the buyer, then now it has found its way through newspapers, TVs, computers with the one similarity between the old and new times – if you want to have success, then you have to beautifully describe it to impress people.

Unknown Reasons…

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Sometimes the people you run from are the ones that seem to haunt you all the way throughout your life. These are not the people who you hate but rather who you love but with whom you just can’t be because of reasons that are unknown and yet so powerful. You know only one thing – that without you they’re gonna do better, happier, luckier,,, that they’re gonna smile,,, one thing that’s missing when they are with you because those unknown reasons just don’t let the lips perform that simple lip movement because in reality even that smile that today’s being so masterly faked needs energy coming from the soul.

Don’t Give up on the Ones You Love

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I had decided for sure that melancholy would never squeeze my heart again,,, I broke my own promise. It keeps on squeezing over and over again. I don’t know what this is, pain that I let him go, fear I will never see him again or something else. Or maybe I am just a less than a half person without him. They say the spaces between our fingers are created to be filled by someone else’s. How much I wish it were only a matter of finger spaces… It’s my soul and my heart that bear those spaces and they need him to be complete. This is awful and I feel it’s stronger than me, it’s stronger than every principle. You know about all his good and worst points but you still know that it’s him. And I need him so…

They say that once people were a whole and they didn’t need any mate. But then one day Greek Goddess Aphrodite divided every person into two and since those ancient and forgotten times people have been looking for their halves.

You know it’s love when…

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You know it’s love when a day doesn’t pass without him.

You know it’s love when you think about what he wears and what he eats more than you think about yourself.

You know it’s love when he is somewhere though safe but you still hope nothing bad will happen to him.

You know it’s love when you are ready to do everything for him, even if it’s letting him go.

Raped Every Other Day…

She was born a great many years ago. The beauty she had can’t be described; she looked heavenly beautiful. She was the undeniable embodiment of kindness and love. She never hurt anyone, only gave people whatever she could to make them happy, she fed them, provided shelter, gave them warmth and loved them. She cared for the nature and the wildlife,

I’m Just a Dreamer…

You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one… Only God knows how many people tell me this. “You’re a dreamer” this phrase implies that your way of living is not right or rather realistic. I believe mainly two type of people hear it — those who live in their imaginary world, where everything is kind and generous and as they wish, and those who have unrealistic dreams thought to be goals.

I belong to both types. No, I have not cut myself from the reality, I clearly feel and see it, but it’s too cruel for me. I hate all that cruelness I see around me, and it does not refer to only the murders, cheatings, lies and unfaithfulness I see around me. You know they’ve become a rather acceptable way of living, while they should not be. Words like loyalty, love, honesty, trust, faith have long lost their true meaning.

I Forgive You: Meant or Just Uttered?

Forgiveness is what we ask for when we make a mistake, hurt someone or do a wrong thing. But what I wonder is why we always expect to be forgiven when WE apologize, but when we are to forgive, we make the person suffer, and only then think of forgiving them, of course if we do in the end? Is that because we think our apologies are sincere, while we cannot be sure about someone else’s sincerity?

New Year, New Thoughts, New Life

When people don’t have much reason to live, they are waiting for this day hoping it will change their lives.

I’ve got much reason to live, one of them being my family. But the 2011 was as much beautiful for me as ugly it was, I went through really hard times, most of them being inner pain and sufferings. Sometimes they’d make me not care about anything in the world, and I’d wish to die or just everyone else to disappear so that I could rest. I bet many of you have gone through all this. I tell you it’s wrong, and you yourselves know that.