She was born a great many years ago. The beauty she had can’t be described; she looked heavenly beautiful. She was the undeniable embodiment of kindness and love. She never hurt anyone, only gave people whatever she could to make them happy, she fed them, provided shelter, gave them warmth and loved them. She cared for the nature and the wildlife, she would give them food once they were hungry, would give them water when they were thirsty and would water the plants and the trees, when they needed water to drink to grow. She was a virgin who had been touched only by the most creative hand of God. But as anything in this life, she was not appreciated.
She would give all of her to help people, but she had forgotten that people are cruel… Cruel people started mistreating her. They firstly raped her, when she was still too young to go through such cruelty. She asked them, she begged not to do that but no one listened to her. And up to this day she’s being raped, every day and at every moment. Raping her has become a desire, which is never quenched, even when the desire is gone, people don’t stop mistreating her, it’s become kind of a demand for life — to rape her to live. But what she’s done? She’s been innocent.
People don’t know what innocence is, they can’t bear her innocence, because every other person thinks they are the kind, they are the innocent, they are the right, while a mere glance into her eyes makes them realize they are not. So they abuse her. And as a result she turned into a beast filled with contradicting feelings. On the one hand, she still loves people, but on the other, she’s both scared of them and hates their attitude towards each other and her. She started living a dual life. She loves those who love her and kills or hurts those who cause her pain. Don’t hurry to judge her — she turned into what we made her turn into. Unfortunately, sometimes innocent people are among her victims as well. But wasn’t she innocent when she was mistreated? She didn’t deserve that. All she wants is to wipe away the bad and replace it with the remaining good. But can she?
There are so many people that she can hardly fight against them all. So sometimes she just gives up, and people continue raping and abusing her, sometimes she gets filled with revenge, and takes it with the severest possible methods, she even makes up her mind to blow out everyone to live in peace with what’s remained. But then she sees those babies and those acts of kindness and thinks there is still hope left. She regrets her revenge but it’s too late, but then she’s offended again.
She never wished a bad thing to anyone, but she was the one to suffer the most. Today she doesn’t even have air to breathe, because people have stolen even her air, she doesn’t have water to drink because people have polluted it as much as possible, she doesn’t have energy to blossom, and she has lost its liveliness. She’s gradually losing her strength to fight against people, and she hates seeing that people are losing everything human, and she decides to blow out herself. But she doesn’t do it in a way as to momentarily disappear; because she hates those people who hurt her as much as she loves them, because that’s her mission in this life — to serve them. And she hurts herself. She hopes those partial explosions and losses will help people become smarter and reconsider their way of living. But they don’t… They have given in to their personal desires and only, and they don’t see that those evil desires lead them to the worst possible things in life. She can’t bear that. She used to think the love she gives to people is a love that can never forsake, she was wrong, her love is not enough. Nothing is enough…
The pain she undergoes because of people and their actions turned her into an old lady, who even being raped this much is still a lady, and not a woman because deep in her heart she’s the same young girl dreaming of the best and the kind. She was born to live and die (if she was to die) a virgin, the beautiful virgin with the most beautiful eyes, nose, hands, body, heart and soul… But she was gravely wounded, and those wounds will hardly be healed… She’s given up, she has resigned… She now doesn’t even feel the pain, she’s lost every sensation, she just wants to pass away, to disappear to preserve the good that she still has in her core… She sees she has no way out, she actually knew that long ago when Abel was being buried and she was helplessly crying “I am virgin, it hurts…”
Oh God, how much I’d like to put people on mute and their actions and ideas on a permanent pause for her to start living again and for me to see that naive and sinless look she had when she was still not wasted, scourged and shattered. She looks so exhausted and dreary today, in no way she deserved it, my once heavenly cerulean planet — Earth…
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